Day 5 of September
The Hope Within the Storm Collection
Of the PTSD Poetry Project 2016
Day 16 of 22
“Year Six”
Pain racked my body
A near constant
Until the volume
Turned up too loud
To be ignored
Surgery needed
Secrets inside my body
Revealed
Secrets cut away
From inside my body
Secrets stilled
And swept away
As surely as dirt
Into the catch pan
The stillness was final
And in the silence
Something happened
A miraculous thing
Healing began to occur
As my body healed
Memories surfaced
Bubbled up and over
Freeing me from their hold
The dark cave within me
The dark dwelling place
I left behind
I took final steps out of this place
Into the light of day
The light I’d thought
Was gone
Or perhaps had fooled myself
Into believing never existed
Life began again
I had finally stepped out
Of the storm within
An imperfect place
A tenuous shawl wrapped around me
For a time
While I healed
The autumn arrived again
This time without all the pain
I was strong inside
I wobbled a bit
But I faced it head on
The emblem on my chest
Now firmly in place
I had finally discovered
I could still be my own superhero
Now it was time
To fly high again
Now it was time
To face it all head on
Now it was time
To finally begin
The journey
Of saving myself
It would prove itself
To be a wildly
Audacious act
To begin to fall
In love with …
Me
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